I actually do get paranoid sometimes. Thats why I have a dog, a cat, a bunch of flashlights and a few knives always where I know where they are. I always sleep with a knife on my headboard.

If you all are scared, it comforts me.

Edited by - Eh_Steve on 4/15/2004 11:31:27 AM

im occasionaly slightly neurotic, but not as bad as you

having said that, i do have a knife nearby...

ahhaha, suckas!

its your imagination. its why kids are scared of the dark. I mean there could be anythign behind you, anything in the shadows, under the bed, in the closet (like taw). When you grow up, alot of people's imagination goes and they start thinking rationally about everythign. But wondering wahts in the shadows is perfectly normal.
I would admit that i do quicken my pace when moving in the dark but im not insane enough to sleep with a knife by me, thats ****ing stupid and asking for trouble.

As for angels, "supposed to be white?" how about "supposed to be totally goddamn fictional"


"Some folks will never eat a skunk, but then again some folks'll
like cletus, the slack-jawed yokel"

When I was younger, the first time I spent time in the house alone, waiting for my parents to get back from an evening out, I was petrified. Not by the dark or anything but by the feeling of being totally alone. I started to worry about whether they were killed in a car accident and how I would ever survive without them. That got me scared to no end 'cause I felt totally and absolutely alone in the world.

Then, of course, they got home and they asked me how I fared and I told them "Piece of cake."

I got that once before, but it was more along the lines of being dangerously dehydrated and hallucinating slightly, I could see these small dark shapes in my peripheral vision.
I am a little more paranoid at night especially when I'm in London, I'm constantly alert for pickpockets, shifting my bag from side to side quite often when I'm in crowded sections, I also look for escape routes sometimes. That might make me sound crazy, but if you have to walk down an unlit track alongside the Thames around midnight and your friend has warned you that people get mugged down there, it's just being a little more sensible.

@Arch,

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in the closet (like taw).

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Or out of the Closet, (Like Locutus)

Well to be honest, I might be that black shadow that you are so afraid of.
It's Because I sometimes get lost on a hunt and end up stalking the wrong prey

@Eh_steve, You say you live in a tough naighbourhood, so I can imagine you sleeping with a knife under your pillow or wherever, but to be honest I find it total Bull, don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with being concerned about personal safety, but fact is, for that knife to be usefull you wuld have to have an awake body and a sleeping mind for it to even have effect, I mean what guarantee do you have that when the poor fellow breaks into the house, that you would even hit him with it, in a semi-awakened state with the adrenalin rushing through your every vein(sp?). Be Mindfull, I am not calling you a chicken or anything similar to a cowarded piece of ***. But it takes an awake mind to use a Blade right, and to use a blade wrong is to commit murder!!

So know what you are doing... as it can turn to a VERY awry situation to you.

Edited by - Locutus on 4/15/2004 1:51:15 PM

Trust me, Loc, I have three states of being awake. 1: I'm awake as normal, 2: Asleep, and 3: The most awake. I wake up in the middle of the night and I am so scared that I can sense everything around me and tell what's moving in what room. I've had so many sleepless nights I know what noises everything makes.

Yes, I live in a tough neighborhood. It gets tougher as more of the gangs move out further away from downtown. Just minutes ago I was almost jumped by some guys wanting my bike. Thank god for acceleration.

If you want to think of it as your guardian angel good for you perhaps it is. I see stuff like that occasionally and sometimes I see things around people Aura's I guess you would say, not often mind but enough to make me think it happens. It could probably be explained away thru science and stuff but I choose to believe in things beyond this reality so there you have it.

@Eh_Steve I used to have a weapon of some sorts in every room in the house (some were improvised like the heavy metal towel bar in the bathrooms) but not next to me and not usually in plain site. Now in my new house I have them as well but most are now "weapons of oppurtunity" instead of traditional weapons (guns knives swords etc) just a way of thinking I guess or knowing your enviornment. Plus I couldnt sleep with cutlery i toss and turn too much i WOULD HATE TO WAKE UP AS A GIRL
edited to add not only do I ramble I would make a very ugly girl

I Am Sharp like Bowling Ball


Edited by - ssjgarretjax on 4/15/2004 1:01:19 PM

Steve (Or whatever your name, your just steve to me)
That third state you mentioned sounds a lot like the Akira nong-Kata. A technique used to sharpen all your senses. and feel rather then see your enemie

It can drive you up so fast, that you won't even know that you are awake, and just act on instinct.

@Jax, That is a very sharp observation you made, and I must say I have a weapon as well, a crossover between a cat o'nine Tails and a Kusarigama, it doesn't have sharp objects on it, but is dangerous enough, Because I work in a Very criminal town (Den Helder) I don't even go out unarmed, I always carry around a folding stick umbrella which would fit in the palm of me hands, but can click out to the amazing length of about 2 feet, I had the stick hardened with Titanium Fibre, and I always carry it with me. so te be completely honest I do the same thing.

Edited by - Locutus on 4/15/2004 1:29:41 PM

@Loc, most of us know of that state of alertness as an adrenaline rush. I'd love to know if it would be possible to consciously start it though, that would be pretty fun.
I'm surprised by the people with weapons. Maybe I'm less at risk being a bigger guy, but I rely on keeping my wits about me and avoiding confrontations in the first place. I'd be scared to use a weapon, what happens if it's used against you?
What happens if you find yourself relying on it too much and when the time comes you're too busy caught up trying to get to it that the attacker is already hitting you. What if it gives you a false sense of security and you let yourself into more compromising situations. And finally what happens afterwards, are the police going to arrest you? Do you want to end up doing time or just having a criminal record over some two-bit punk?
I mean, weapons at home is one thing, but weapons outside, in public, seems a little too risky.

I must admit that I'm sacred of the dark and I think I'm being followed whenever I leave my room sometimes at 2:00 a.m. when its dark in the main section of the house. I rarely leave my room that late unless I ahve to go to the bathroom.I was sacred a lot when I was little. I actually have some weapons in my room like 2 scissors, a steel bar(got that from when I was running in track, don't know how it got there), a clay castle and canlde holder, a small iron moose figure, my uncle sam penny collector, and I could smash my lamp for somethingt like a tazer(it has a wooden shaft).

We go for victory!

If you're attacked by someone and your life is a risk, and you badly injure or perhaps even kill them you won't be arrested. Isn't it called justifiable homicide? Although if I was attacked on the street I'd try to injure rather than kill, because then the ***hole would not only be in pain physically but he'd have lots of fun prison time ahead of him picking up the soap for Bubba.

It's an axe, I use it to...hack at people

Lol weapons by your bed...and I thought I was crazy

Well I do have 6 inch blade and stainless steal kitchen knife...but that does not count, right?

Well I would be "scared" of night at some times....would moslty run to bathroom turning every single light on when this happenes

Yeah thats what I do I cautiosly peer out the door, open it, turn on my bedroom lights, turn on the hall light, increase the volume on my t.v. turn on the bathroom light then make a mad dash back to my room.

We go for victory!