CHET you'd better dam' look after yourself and not disappear! if you do I'll come to dam' Serbia after you.

If I were you, I'd check this thread one last time....and I if I were you, I'd refrain from doing it. Just seeing the replies here make my heart glow. As Gabe and Tycho said recently: "Gamers are always suspected of developing abnormalities. Now I concede that that is true. Gamers have developed unusually large hearts". Pause for a while and think what you are leaving behind, even if we are half a world away. I can only hope that you're not gone yet.

I did what I could... and C: Don't do anything rash: When it is most dark, it can only be more light from there - work your way out of it, and light will forever shine in your life in the end! Makes you strong!

Best Regards
Christian "Bargib" Koerner
Editor in Chief, The Lancers Reactor

Chet i can't do anything to stop you from doing this from where i am now but all i can say is don't do it.In my opinion Life on Earth is a gift which is not to be taken lightly.I just hope you make the right desicion

Chetnik

What In the Name of hell Are you doing?!?!

For the love of life don't continue with this.
If you commit suicide now you are a Coward to life. And not the fighter I know you to be

Face life head on, Don't see the darkness but rather the life as a light
you are in control of your own destiny.
Take that control, This is not you talking, This is the dispair talking, abandon the Dispair and see the light, Running away from the problem by ending your life is not the solution, What was once dark will again be light.

You were as much as a friend to me as much as anything, even more actually.
If you end it now you will only do more wrong then right, Life has her downs
just take them, let them make you stronger and move on
Life will always go on, Surviving only makes you stronger.

if you did it, only this rest me to say: Forever, Until the day we are reborn
This is my holy Pledge to you Tihomir and I will hold myself to it.

Dasvidanija. Tihomir My friend... Forever, Until The day we are Reborn...

Edited by - Locutus on 1/10/2004 11:00:41 AM

Chet you ass, get back here this instant and sort this mess out. Youve gone and gotten everyone worried now. Whatever's bad in your life to make you wanna close the book rather than read on is not worth it. Hell theres still another Star Wars movie to see, new places to go, new people to meet. There are a million alternatives to what you are hinting at doing and i pegged you as smarter than that. Hell at the very least Taw needs some backup when tech supporting all our bloody screw ups

give us a sign man, if your reading this thread still i urge you to reply. For peice-of-mind's sake. I think everyone here is prepared to help you through any problems you might have, seriously. Let us know whats going on, abiguous posts only lead to panic man.


"ive got an attitude of everything i've ever wanted"

'kin right I do, who do you think sorts out all MY b*lls-ups? Chet's the only person I ever turn to.

OT forum is like a big family, no one likes loosing a family member.

I sincerely hope that this is all a huge joke, and that Chet is laughing his ass off, looking at us getting all worried, right now.

I hope that too, I sincerely Hope so too

and Taw:

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CHET you'd better dam' look after yourself and not disappear! if you do I'll come to dam' Serbia after you.

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If you go, you can come to pick me up because then I will damn sure go with you.

irony is that a few months ago i was only about 30mins flight time away from him. hell i couldve driven there in a couple of hours.

Chet WTF are you doing, stop, think and listen to your beating heart!

now think, about what might be to come!
think about your family, man!
think of your parents how sad they'd be, do want that!
think of your kids to come think how beautifull they may be and how proud you could be when things are good
think of your grandkids and how beautifull they may be and think how none of this might be possible without you!
and finally think of the infinite possibilities that surround each and everyone of us including you and think how every single one of thos possibilities will cease to exist if so do you...

and finnaly think of YOU!



Centurai

WHAT THE...!

Chetnik, don't do that! You don't do that! I was tinking of doing this, when things didn't worked out for me, when i didn't feelt that it was any meaning of anything. BUT... i slowly began to realise that, i had more options, so i didn't do IT. And, today, im really glad, that i didn't. So, PLEASE, at least think over what you do, and what other options you have. Theres is ALWAYS a solution. PLEASE, just sit down a moment, and think of it. I don't know what exactly it is that's wrong for you, but think of it for a while. That's how i did it. And look at me today, still here.

...
My... Aren't I the popular one...? <- insert a smiley here - I don't feel like smiling
I never knew you cared this much... Well, you certanly showed me... So did my friend.
She (Sanya) made me say goodbye, and she made me read the replies... I guess I should be thankful for this truly is a revelation.
I always felt a bit unwanted and unneeded no matter where I went and how well accepted I was...
Oh well... At least you got what you wished for... For now.
I don't know how long I can pretend to be alive...
The situation is way too complicated, it would take weeks for me to fill you in... So I'm gonna tell you what was the trigger (reasons are numerous).
Where to start... It's about my best friend, Bojana... I've told you about her before...
Some of you may remember, it was in GE's thread. Bojana was everything to me. She truly was the other (better) half of me... We spent full 8 years growing up together... I love her so much... No words can describe it. The problem was that she didn't want to "spoil our friendship"... I was ok with that, although it was fairly hard keeping distance... Especially because I knew she was fighting her feelings too... During the last few months she started giving in... The problem now was that she already had a boyfriend, none other than my friend Davor... She had decided to leave him because of me... As it turned out it was a huge mistake... When she told him what was going on, he... He beat her up... Her father called me from the hospital... He said she suffered severe injuries, and that her condition was critical... I rushed over... I had found out that she went to his place and when he was done with his... deed... He just left her lying on the floor... Sha somehow managed to call the ambulance... Unfortunately, too late... She died from massive internal bleeding... Right in front of my eyes... On that day I died with her... I was lost for almost a month... I tried to fight... I struggled to find a reason to live on... No such luck. How could he... How dare he take her away?! I just... I can't live without her... I wont... I refuse to live in a world where savage beasts rule over innocent. wonderful people... Whrere fools make the rules... Where... Ahhh... I don't have the strength to be enraged anymore... Sorrow... Pain... Suffer... Anger... Have no meanung anymore... They wont bring her back... And I... I wasn't tryng to escape... Or to solve problems... I just wanted to go look for her... God knows how much I miss her... How much I need her...
This is the reason why I wont do it... I wont leave the ones I love and the ones I'm loved by... But you must be prepared to accept me, for I have changed... Not by my choice... I will probably never be the same... I'm sorry I scared you... I', sorry I disappointed you... I failed miserably... I should have known... God it hurts...
You will understand if I take some more time to recover... Right?
Thank you. Thank you for saving my life... And at the same time... I hate you for making me exist without my Bojana... But I fell that I can forgive you in time... And turn the "hate" into gratefulness...