Its good to see you again Chetnik.

I live because I am in love. Perhaps I have an overly romantic view of the world, and I know I don't have the most realistic view, but it works for me, keeps me sane, (mostly) and keeps me alive. This was not always the case, for a time I seriously contemplated suicide, for a variety of reasons, but, for now at least, I am planning to stay among the living.

I am curious, Chetnik, what is your answer to your question? Why do you live?

Edit: Oh, and if you don't mind my asking, why the addition to your name?

Edited by - Huffer on 25-12-2003 03:11:15

To see possibility in a slight touch, to know love in an embrace, to understand the world through a lover's eyes, to hear the song of an angelic voice and to caress in my heart a beautiful soul.

Sir Spectre

Why do we have all these threads requiring deep thought all of a sudden?

I am here souly to experance life as a male. Some times I really don't like this life, I often think about skipping this life and moving on to being a girl. But, I have to do this. Trials before the reward.

Life: No one gets out alive.

I exist only to serve. I am defined by my usefulness. My wife and kids would find life diffcult if not impossible without me therefore that gives me a sense of purpose. Similarly my employers find it difficult to cope without me which also gives me satisfaction and purpose.

Without these things I am directionless and lost. I am what I do. does that answer your question, Chet?

@Chetnik,

I exist to experience and learn and to share what I have experienced and learned with others. I am not a teacher because I cannot repeat the same lessons to teach kids in cookie cutter fashion (I have no patience for that).

But I've been able to find work where I am able to do this on an individual basis. When you do it this way, you find that no two assignments, while generally addressing the same issues, are the same.

I also exist, now, because I am a father. My daughter, now, is my most important client. My wife, second most at the moment and I daresay the feelings are mutual as between my wife and me.

I seek freedom and love.

i live to experience the world, and to find love, and someday to make films that will wipe the floor with the new star wars trilogy, and on a par with lotr

It is better to aim for the stars and hit the tops of the trees than to aim for nothing and hit it dead on.

I dunno... not sure... I just have this really freaky habbit thinking that the WHOLE world was made just for me, and I can live happily...

I think I've watched too much of the Truman show...

Seein as I've barely really started this whole life thing yet, I don't see much point in giving up already

You eediot, can't you see this is a relegious discussion? I mean, whats a Christian supposed to say here? And if he does, what are the mods going to say? Pah

yes, what am i supposed to say here?

It is better to aim for the stars and hit the tops of the trees than to aim for nothing and hit it dead on.

@Huffer: The answer... Look at Taw's post. (without the wife and kids part)
Well, at least that was true up until now. I did choose to live for others rather than myself, but as I ventured trough life I was constantly reminded that this approach is not welcome by a vast majority of people. They did like to exploit my generosity and heplfulness but as soon as I was no longer needed, I was hardly and shamelessly discarded. Nevertheless, I kept believing that most people are good in essence, that they were just raised to be selfish, so that they could survive in a world as filthy as the one before us, and that they needed to be reminded how everything is so much nicer and easier if done "my" way...
It seems that I was very wrong. <-- UNDERSTATEMENT
The adfdition to my nickname... Unfortunately, I have a bit of a darkside and it kinda surfaced lately... A defence mechanism, to prevent me from giving up on life. I hope I will never have enough power to do what I wish(at this moment)... To purge this sewer, this poor excuse for a world from the unworthy, to turn this swamp into a beautiful gem pond, as it was meant to be... There are too much people in this world anyway.

@Tawakalna: We have so much in common... At least we had. I admire your strength and persistance... Don't ever change, I need a role model. I don't want to stay so bitter and disappointed; I know it's pointless, but for now, I cannot let it go.
I opened my eyes and I did not like what I saw... Maybe I was in a muddy water at the time, so I'll wait and see if it clears, but if it doesn't... Then I'm not sure if I wanna keep on living here, in a wrong place, in a wrong time, fighting against myself... A battle I cannot leave victorius.
Excuse my overdramatising this whole matter, but when your world, your sanctuary collapses, you'll feel the need to do this too. And sadly, it most probably will happen, at some point, because as Stonger used to say, "No good deed will ever go unpinished."...

@Chetnik, p'raps I'm taking this too seriously, but who would you be to decide which humans deserve to survive and which dont?
I can understand there's been a lot of stuff that could be getting you depressed, just turn to something you know you can trust. When I'm down or pissed off with things at home, I try to get out on my bike and ride out over the hills and countryside, just me 'n' nature, some freedom and contemplation are all thats in order. As much as you seem to be upset by those who have betrayed you, perhaps time by yourself is what you need anyway? In all seriousness, you've shown us how beautiful your country is before, get out and enjoy it, go for a walk in the snow, whatever, just go somewhere quiet and calm, always does the job for me. If anything else you can burn of some pent up energy and stress. When I ride, I ride to exhaustion and afterwards you feel so much calmer (probably endorphins but still, you get the point). I've rambled enough. If you want to talk to anyone about your problems feel free to email me.