Sat Apr 03, 2004 11:28 pm
I'm sorry you lost a friend this way. I'm sorry for what your friend's wife and son will have to go through. In 95 a man I considered my mentor, friend, leader and confidant took his own life with a shotgun in his mouth. I was sorry I lost a friend, I was sorry his wife and two daughters lost the man they loved and counted on. But I have to ask you a question, Boscoe. Aren't you pissed? I couldn't tell from your post but I know when my friend took his life I was outraged that anyone could be so goddamned selfish. I have a wife, a seven year old son and a three year old daughter. The thought of purposefully leaving them without my support makes my blood run cold. The act my friend commited was one of the cruelest most heinous crimes any father can commit. He left three people who depended on him for everything with nothing but the memory that they didn't mean enough to him for him to stick around. That's just evil in my book. When I attended the funeral I sat behind his oldest daughter. I got to witness up close and personal what those kids went through. Evil. I've never witnessed such mental devestation perpetrated on another human being.
I don't know about you but I'll never forgive my friend. I'll never again think about him as anything but a heartless, cruel, cowardly, EVIL bastard.
When I saw that your friend had a seven year old I mentally pictured my son.
How the hell is anyone going to explain to that boy why his dad did what he did? How is a seven year old going to come to grips with it? Even in twenty years how is that 27 year old going to understand why his father left him to grow up without his dad?
Over the years others close to me have told me that the fact that I don't understand why he did it is why I'm so angry about it. Personally I feel that being able to understand how anyone can do something like that to their family is impossible.
I'm not trying to tell you how to feel about your friend. Maybe you are able to feel some empathy. I just want to know if it makes you angry. I see other people in this thread have lost someone this way but I don't see any anger. Maybe you're all saints and I'm the only one who can't understand how someone can be so selfish. But thinking about what your friend did to his boy just brings back all the rage.
I don't know about you but I'll never forgive my friend. I'll never again think about him as anything but a heartless, cruel, cowardly, EVIL bastard.
When I saw that your friend had a seven year old I mentally pictured my son.
How the hell is anyone going to explain to that boy why his dad did what he did? How is a seven year old going to come to grips with it? Even in twenty years how is that 27 year old going to understand why his father left him to grow up without his dad?
Over the years others close to me have told me that the fact that I don't understand why he did it is why I'm so angry about it. Personally I feel that being able to understand how anyone can do something like that to their family is impossible.
I'm not trying to tell you how to feel about your friend. Maybe you are able to feel some empathy. I just want to know if it makes you angry. I see other people in this thread have lost someone this way but I don't see any anger. Maybe you're all saints and I'm the only one who can't understand how someone can be so selfish. But thinking about what your friend did to his boy just brings back all the rage.
