the drugs are worse than the withdrawl, going thru withdrawl to become unadicted is better than lifelong addiction

NEVER EVER EVER DO THIS!!DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT!!

i am among the 5[% with DSL that doesnt want pictures with the news posts on the home page

Edited by - ):Wolf_Demon on 1/21/2004 6:15:43 PM

Edited by - ):Wolf_Demon on 1/21/2004 6:16:41 PM

Thats a real comforting image wolfy.

just a pice of advice
and it was not mine
i was on the site and decided to geive the avice

i am among the 5[% with DSL that doesnt want pictures with the news posts on the home page

poor malystryx! what a state youre in. if its any consolation, I have been in pretty much exactly the same position in the past, being an idle toad and under-achieveing, substance abuse (chas) deep depression/medication and not even a pot to p*ss, couldn't pay me bills, rent, or get any snappin.

unf. they're all interelated

firstly you gotta kick the happy stuff, because thats making the depression bad as it is. Withdrawal is a mental battle unless your on the strong stuff, and even if it is just psycholgical, its desp. hard work esp if you havent got any real support.

second, don't pack in the ant-ds, eventually they will b lock out the worst of the depression but things wont change overnight and the only thing your changing is the Perception of your position, not the actual circumstances. but lets not run before we can walk, eh? do you fell tired all the time and keep falling asleep but dont actually sleep well? have dark dreams about being trapped or crushed and stuff? if so you gotta leave the physical situation youre in. move out and live somewhere else and make sure you have people you trust around you.

third, pretty important this one. the brain-boilers will be eating up yer cash so think of every score as a decent meal gone to waste. Unf many drugs (opiates & stimulants) reduce appetite so in addition to not having any cash, you dont feel hungry meaning you spend more cash on dope. cut the sh*t and you save cash, eat agin and get healthy.

its a hard vicious circle that many fall into and some dont survive. for me it was very hard as I was spending £400 a week on chas and e's then when the money ran out I came back down to Earth with a majorly crash, and suffered severe depression and anxiety for nearly a year, as well as many other things going wrong. oh yeh I was skint too (as in penniless) but and no comfort for you here, it's all self-inflicted, and only you can get yourself out of it. No-one will help you until you're prepared to help yourself.

I dont think maly will kill him/herself usually it is all talk.
What is the point of advertising that you are depressed i can understand if you wish to let out your feelings. But really if you are contemplating suicide dont do it think of what you would waste, it would be selfish think of your family.

"There cannot be peace in these times"

well nobody will kill themselves with a nice community like this they can turn to (i.e. me-only i wasnt on the verge of suicide- just depressed)

i am among the 5[% with DSL that doesnt want pictures with the news posts on the home page

I felt like posting a free bonus, so...
People are frightened by life, no exceptions. They survive because they choose to believe in something bigger than themselves, bigger than life itself. This something could be a principle, an opinion, God... Doesn't really matter. Usually these serve as reasons, "excuses" to continue living, and mostly those reasons are relationships (interaction) such as Love, Friendship, even popularity...
Even if you cannot justify existing for the sake of it, you can choose to live because of your loved ones. It may seem logical that life cannot be important because it's too short. In fact, because it is so short and fragile, if you can't make the best of it (in which I doubt), you can try your best to live it out properly because of your parents, your best friend, your unborn child(ren), the joy of knowing that you're loved and needed... It can't be too hard and you don't want to hurt everyone, do you?
There is no such thing as an unsolvable problem. Especially when you're not alone. Never give up no matter what. Whenever you lose something, you gain something at the same time, often much more than you lost... Take the word of an expirienced 'painbearer'... (I'm not glorifying myself, just stating the truth)
Morning breeze stops at noon, summer rains last 15-30 minutes, rainbow appears once a year... Nature can't make anything last forever, so why expect humans to be able (and willing) to do so? No, what we should do is enjoy the moment, enjoy what we are given... Remember this.
Take care of yourself, malystrix. I wish you the best of luck, and the best of what life has to offer.

Edited by - Chetnik on 1/23/2004 3:39:52 AM

Geez, Chet, ever thought of studying philosophy?
Anyway, I wouldn't care too much, since people who really want to go suicide never address anybody. I guess it's just craving for attention (which is totally understandable, especially concerning chicks). Drug problem is serious, though, and Mal is gona need all the assistance she (he?) can get. Well, after all, we're here

It's better to be a worldwide known drunkard than an anonymous alcoholic!