dude thats rough....I know its easier said than done but try not to dwell on it too much.
don't be tempted to do the "strip clubs and beer" thing though too soon either, it can be even more depressing.
try doing everything she wouldn't let you do, or you couldn't get away with when she was there, I've found it helps. Play computer games dressed only in your dressing gown, don't wash, don't shave, eat **** food thats bad for you but tastes good and watch sci-fi and action films 24/7....its not gonna make the problem go away, but you'll feel a lot better...especially if you do it for a week or so, then clean yourself up, I can guarantee you'll feel 200% when you leave the house.
Or alternatively cry your eyes out til you can't breathe then tell us all about it....we'll give you crap advice in a vain effort to help, which won't help at all but it might make you feel better knowing there are people out there that are sadder than yourself!
PS. it takes balls to admit that it affected you.... don't put yourself down.
Edited by - gromit on 07-10-2003 17:49:35